One story:- My memory is a blur so some may not make seance
however this is all a true story and one of my many regrets. The day we met. 3
girls, best friends. Lets call them A B and C. A was my lady she was adorable
and B was her best friend, could call them sisters. C was the weirdo of the
group who we would always run away from just to get away from but nobody could
split the 3 apart. As time started to fly by i started to get to know C and she
grew on me. We started as just talking and then she became my therapist when me
and A was having our downfalls. me and a split up after a while but was still
geog friends, the whole school knew C had a thing for me even I knew however I
never let myself slip because of my so called 'reputation'. I was never over A,
well that what i thought, its like i got so used to telling myself i want A
back that even when i didn't like her it became a habit of wanting her,
understand?Anything that happened after
that was a blur for me but what I do remember is me and c was very good friends and in high school
every friend we would have group activities which we could pick to do for a
whole month. I had picked watching Indian movies just to be the class clown and
had convinced C to do it with me, i think she enjoyed it more then me. The next
month i picked a walking activity where we would just go out on walks with
teachers.I remember her not having a phone so she would beg her friend to give
hers to use just so she can text me even though she was sitting on the opposite
side to me. She text, then looked up and as soon as i opened it id look up n
just see her smiling at the screen. She was beautiful but still in my mind i
was thinking i needed A.I remember one day me and C as talking on Hotmail as
she didn’t have a phone, and her mum took her pc and asked who am I and I had to fake I was a
a girl a few months past and it was like
a movie we spoke everyday in school , hung out everyday in school and hardly
ever argued.Even when i was ins mood with her she would still always pop up
even though she knew i was going to give boring dead replies. She was my rock..
a few more months passed by and she ended up dating a boy lets call him D. And
roamers started going around that C had cancer. Nobody believed it but she would
just keep saying its true. Even though i never believed it i still stuck by her
and forced her to go to every "appointment" she had a few months passed
and apparently the cancer cleared and because we got close while she "had
cancer" she broke up with D. He loved her i knew he did she was his first
love and i was her first love. Me and C was always flirty after that but if
anyone ever asked we was just best friends, we could have made it official but
i was too scared to admit it to her that i love her....
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| One story of Bestfriend and girlfriend |
About a year or two later
Shes back with D and me n D became best mates we would be
with each-other all day it was me D, C and Cs best friend lets call her E, we
would hang out every day in school. c and d Wanted to get with but She was just
easy, anyone Could get with her id just Flirt to keep her Happy….. me and C
would still always talk all night every night and one day D went on holiday n
never had no wi-fi where he lived so asked me to go on his account n speak to C
acting like him.. talking to C on two different accounts at the same time was
hard but just acting like her boyfriend got me in my feelings and i wanted her
and she wanted me everyone knew it but i never let it happen until one day on
my account i complimented her.. a compliment turned into A X and after that it
was two and then ten X (text kisses).
Once after school she had to wait for E to finish detention and begged me to
wait with her so we was stuck in a empty school for 45 minutes alone. We played
about ran around n once i had no energy left i sat down on the only chair that
was round us, she sat on my leg because i didn't want to get up n put her head
on my shoulder then looked up and we kissed, we was both so happy but once the
fun was over I released how did I just do just do that shes one of my best
friends girlfriends I never told nobody about it n we swore we wouldn't speak
of it again but she told two other girls who eventuality told D. He got mad but
she took all the blame even though it was all my fault, later i admitted it was
my fault n everyone hated me the whole school id spend break times alone, D
loved her and took her back every time so they got together, however she
wouldn't let me go she would always check up on me and talk to me as a best
friend even though he hated me. I cant remember what happens after that but
year 11, she was single n so was i, the teacher made us sit next each-other n we would always mess with
each-other Me and her got really close and its time to pick our options for
whet we wanted to study. I picked media and she picked health and social, i
dint like media so i changed to health and social not knowing she was going to be
there. I walked in and it was a awkward
silence I think me and her just had a argument n wasn’t speaking. We
wanted each-other but she was with D and i still couldn't admit to her that i
loved her, but one day i told her i want her and only her and she was over the
moon however she was with D and was stuck on how to break it to him, so she
just said she had family problems. Me and her got together n the whole school
hated seeing us happy so she left all her mates for me and i left all mine for
her, we would sit in a corner every break and just smile at each-other n kiss
each-other, i never ever thought dirty about her n respected her decisions. We
carved the first letters of our names into the wall where we sat n went there
every day for weeks, but one day she wasn't there i searched the whole school
for her and she told me she needed time alone so i gave her that she started
sitting next to the head teachers office just listening to music and id still
wait in our spot encase she came back. And one day she did come just to tell me
that she don't think she wants me and all she can think about is D. Some how i
just accepted her decision straight away and told her do what makes you happy
even though it killed me. So she went and got with him, id turn around every
time i seen them coming down the corridor and me and her stopped speaking
because he said to her if shes going to be with him she will have to lose
contact with me so she did, and the last thing she said to me was "i'm
always here whenever u need me i promise" i needed her every day after
that but i didn't want to be the reason for them to break up , i made sure
nobody said anything to her after we broke up and made sure everyone left her
alone to be happy with him however she was going around telling lies about me
that he was telling her to say, me and her argued and just before she delete
and blocked me off everything her last words to me was... "i hate you and
you ruined my life gosh i hate you"
Word of advice if you love a girl just to get her no matter
what anyone thinks because i never got her fast enough and 2 years later i'm
still heart broken
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